The Bruised Heart

The Bruised Heart

Shattered bruises covering my shell

I can feel the hurt in my core

Like a thorn in the foot of a dragon

I am unsettled but driven in my rage

 

events and circumstances around me

that leaves me feeling alone

like an ant on a hill staring at the sun

even though it's baking me to a crisp

I remain there waiting for someone

 

I am frozen to the sea,

my heart craves

to drown in Dark winter

as the dark sky bleeds,

and danger is like an angry lion,

tame it if you can

To everything there is a Season

Good Morning internet "friends" on this Great Monday morning. As some of you may know, I like to write. I am living a single life at the moment. I have my own place and have been making it on my own for quite some time. With the Grace of God I have been able to turn many negatives in my life to a positive. I have fallen many times but I have gotten up each time and kept on fighting. I have been betrayed, let down, disrespected, abandoned and ridiculed. I am a person that puts charity above all else and I beleive that chivalry is not dead. So why am I explaining all of this right now? Because these days it seems like everything is backwards. I stand by and watch good women fight fpr the "boy" that's doing them wrong. I see men give up everything for a "girl" who doesn't appreciate her own worth. Check this out: flowers show up at your door just because, your door is always opened for you, standing up at the table as you leave and come back, you never pay for dinner, cuddling close on the couch while watching a movie and sipping hot cocoa. That's just the tip of the iceberg. Some women go their whole life without experiencing true romance. Most men go their whole life not realizing how valuable a good women can be. Yet here we are in the 21st century and people still act like they have no sense. At this moment in my life I've found it better to just wait for God. The time will come when it is His will and it is fit for me to meet someone. Maybe that one is reading this post right now. Probably through some way or someone's effort this post will be shared with them. I close this with one of my favorite scriptures in the Bible. From Ecclesiastes: "...to everything there is a season and a time for every purpose under the heaven."

Serenity is my goal

I have comfort knowing that this battle is not mine. It belongs to God. His hands are shaping the outcome. My heart is glad to accept His will. I am told many things by people these days. People, as they are, become hard to trust. I spend my time engaged in writing, literature, games, spirituality and philosophy. Meanwhile it seems there are those more focused on the next trend or the hot topic of the week.  I remember a person to whom I bared my soul and poured out all my emotions only to be met with a mere expression of mediocrity. It's amazing how some people close to you can remain so oblivious to your outward expression of feelings. Then I know of a certain person who is genuine to me but so far away. Why are the far away people the ones who remain so close? Yet the ones I see daily are so far from sight. Luckily I don't worry too much about these things. Instead I dwell on those things that bring me joy. As I write this I can think of three people dear to me thay I wish were here right now.

I just thought of this right now:

My heart beats for three
Satisfaction of the soul
And now I must take my leave
Serenity is my goal

She Knows

From under the face of despair
she holds a candle in the night
seeking for love and care
she walks slowly toward the light.

She may be afraid to get hurt again
no one blames her choice
searching for her fairy tale friend
she begins to lose her voice

It's possible she can take a leap
faith can produce no woes
what she sows she will soon reap
with the destiny in sight she knows